I should've known better

Well, you might remember that last night I blogged about the boy and hoping to teach him to sleep on his own.

He went to sleep in about 10-15 minutes last night.

I didn't stay up too late, hoping to capitalize on his first few hours asleep, which invariably are the longest stretch.

I chose not to turn on the monitor in the bedroom -- I hear him crying either way, but the monitor picks up all the whimpers and stirrings and things. Which, sometimes, I want. But the monitor's quietest setting still wakes me for the whimpers and stirrings.

So how did I spend the night, you ask?

Drifting in and out of sleep, listening hard to see if I was missing hearing crying. Sitting up leaning forward with both ears to make sure, and wondering if I should turn the monitor on, but then not really wanting to be woken every time he rolled over. And the boy did not cry. Which made me even more anxious that I was somehow missing his crying. Looking over to see if the Grand Lunar was stirring, because he often also wakes when the baby cries, even though he does not sleep on High Alert like I do.

By 6:50 this morning I was dreaming about nursing and sleeping fitfully at best and sure something had gone horribly wrong in the night. So I finally got up and checked on Buzz. Laid my hand on his back to make sure he was breathing. He seemed warm and it seemed like his chest was moving, and I didn't want to wake him, so I started to walk away. Got about 6 steps down the hall and decided to go back and check again. This time I rubbed his warm little head. And woke him. And I felt a lot better sitting down with him to snuggle and nurse him. He was hoarse like he was croupy (all AndFam boys get croupy when they have colds) but I am SURE I would've heard him "crouping" in the night. But he seems happy and fine this morning.

So ... I guess he slept all night, or went back to sleep right away, or only fussed and didn't really CRY ...

and I got about 2 hours sleep in there, between all the anxious listening and stuff.

I think I was better off when he didn't sleep all night, LOL.

Maybe ... just maybe ... (no, Kim, don't get your hopes up) ... I'll get to sleep ALL NIGHT LONG in the near future.