December 18, 2006
From the Pit ...
Okay, if you didn't read my post from yesterday, go do that first, 'cause this follows it.
Okay, are you back? Good thing I didn't go on without you, huh?
I went looking for Beth Moore Bible studies the other week. I didn't find out until later that the studies are only sold through certain sites, but I found some of her books. There's one called "Get Out of that Pit" which sounded right up my alley.
So I ordered it but hadn't started reading it.
Until yesterday after I posted.
She starts by talking about what it's like to be in a pit. Made me bawl. Not a pretty sight. But I think that's what I was trying to describe, I've been in a pit. I'm in a pit.
With a name like muckfootmom, I guess that shouldn't surprise me!
And the best news? I don't have to stay in it and just try to make the best of it. I don't have to just tread water.
Or so she claims.
Half of me is wildly hopeful. Because this book really smacked with that "this is what you have been looking for" feeling. And it's not some magic method from man, from what I've read her books are soundly grounded in the Word. Her enthusiastic writing really points to the Lord, not something Beth Moore invented. So that's good. Exciting. Because I know at the root, that's where the answers are.
But half of me is reserved and afraid to get my hopes up. I think I've been in this pit a long time. I'm afraid I won't 'do it right' - whatever it is - to get out.
I'm not a long way into it, just a few chapters. Not to the "getting out" part.
So you'll have to stay tuned.
In the meantime, I'm pondering whether I need to figure out why/how I came to be in this pit. Some people have clear 'falling in' or 'jumping in' or 'pushed in' incidences. Oh, sure, I have some slips and some jumps and even maybe some pushes. But does which of those is most key matter? Should I try to pore over my past, my choices, my thinking? Or can I just climb out without too much dredging up and introspection?
Well, ramble ramble ... stay tuned. :-)
Oh, and I mean that in an 'over the next few days/weeks' sense, that is. You know me, if I stay awake to read one chapter that'll be a miracle. Don't stay tuned glued to your computers TODAY. I don't think that fast.
LOL.
Posted by Kim at December 18, 2006 3:47 PMYou know, my friend, I am starting to wonder if maybe you are being too hard on yourself. Are you expecting too much out of yourself for this period in your life?
You are supposed to be busy and sleep-deprived during this stage of your life, right? ;-) Which will naturally make the brain a little on the foggy side.
You said, "the 'real world' where things are important ". Right now, your real world is your home and that is where things are very, very important. Is the fogginess there, or are you grasping perhaps for something that is beyond you at this stage and time of your life?
Posted by: Rosanne at December 18, 2006 8:55 PMKim, I have never read Beth Moore... but I am praying there is something helpful for you in it! It is hard to see you struggling...
Posted by: LynninTX at December 18, 2006 9:38 PMOH I had not seen Rosanne's comment before I posted... listen to her... there is great wisdom in what she said!
Posted by: LynninTX at December 18, 2006 9:41 PMoh, I don't know, ladies. I mean, I know why you'd think I was too hard on myself (LOL) but in this case I don't think that's it. I think this is God saying to me, "wake up, wake up, you're missing what's important"
yes, yes, the fog is everywhere, even at home, maybe especially at home. I know my home and family are my priorities, and I don't think I'm trying to find something *else* ...
I feel like I'm missing out on guiding my family where we should be headed. Like I'm doing a poor job of living every day for Jesus. For keeping that focus. That's what's out of focus.
Posted by: Kim at December 18, 2006 10:31 PMHello Kim. :) I did a part of one of her studies a few years ago. I really liked the part I did. I am so glad that it is meeting you right where you need it.
(((Kim)))
Have a wonnnnderful rest of your day.
Posted by: Robin at December 18, 2006 11:00 PMthat sounds great. i can't wait to hear what you learn from it. hope you can read quickly.
Kim,
I do understand what you are saying. I feel the same way often, myself. So, I don't think you are being too hard on yourself. If I read you right (and you are feeling as I often do) you don't want something aside from/in addition to your life now...you want to really "live" your life now. Instead of going through each day in a fog, missing out on what could be with your family. Yep, I understand. Let us know if this book helps, because I'm looking, too.
Posted by: Barbie at December 19, 2006 11:43 AMKim,
I can relate. I'll be praying for you and waiting patiently for your posts on this book. I always enjoy Beth Moore, for the exact reasons you mentioned.
Merry Christmas to you and yours,
Linda
I am looking forward to seeing what you learned from the book. I have finished it and found it very insightful.
Posted by: MichelleIN at December 20, 2006 12:44 PM
