Thank you, dear friends

I just want to thank you, my dear friends, for praying for me, and for asking other friends to pray. It means a lot to me.

I'm grabbed The Grand Lunar's notebook, my sister's car & housekeys, and snuck over to her house to grab a few minutes to update. I thought with GL's computer I could just log in and not have to REMEMBER my password, but guess what? It had forgotten it too. But thank the Lord, He eventually reminded me of the right one so I could post.

So ... for those of you who didn't see it snuck in the comments, I am posting from our vacation in the U.P. to ask you for prayer. I've had some bleeding with this pregnancy (12.5 weeks along) ... it started with a little 'old blood' (hope this isn't TMI) and then progressed to heavier and fresher blood, which really isn't a good sign.

I have talked to my midwife and I'm doing a modified bedrest and prayer approach. At this point the bleeding has slowed, but not really stopped. I spotted yesterday evening, but really didn't have much overnight, but it has picked up again today. Not heavy, but kind of always a little present. so ... I am still having some bleeding, off and on, at this point.

and, at this point, even things seeming to get better doesn't really tell us anything. If I am miscarrying, it could happen quickly or it could take days of off and an bleeding. We don't really know. Rather than rush to a clinic an hour away, we've decided to continue our normal low-intervention approach and just wait and pray. We'll drive home tomorrow, and Monday I'll see my midwife and she'll see if we can get any heart tones. At 13 weeks we may or may not, we've had trouble getting other babies' tones that early. I guess we'll pray and discuss more after that.

SO ... i don't really have any new updates, I'm not sure there really could be one without an ultrasound. For those of you who don't know, I had similar-but-different bleeding with little D, about 4 years ago, and in that case the ultrasound did show he was doing well but labeled us 'high risk' for other reasons and kind of stirred up up whole 'nother realm of prayer concerns and things to worry about. Or try not to worry, as you pray and trust God, if you know what my mean. So I'm not sure I want to go that route again, even though I know it could at least tell us whether the baby is alive or not. Since we're planning a homebirth, it would involve finding a doctor who would be willing to see me despite those plans. I don't really feel comfortable trying to *conceal* those plans, although I suppose I could just omit that information.

Anyway, I apologize for rambling now. I feel a little ... hesitant ... asking for prayer when I know so many others have walked this path quietly, and so many more have dealt with so much more than I have ... but then I've never been one to walk silently ;-) so I may as well have my friends praying along with me. Most of all, my desire is that God would bring Himself glory through our lives.

Well, I'll be home tomorrow night, and I'll post then.

thank you again, my good friends. I love you all. I was so encouraged to read your comments on my last post. It means a lot to me to know you're there.

kim