April 19, 2007
And Now The Rest of the Story ...
Well, the rollercoaster hasn't quite come to a complete and final stop, but we know know which direction it is headed.
We found out yesterday that the baby is no longer alive. It was a difficult day, and I did not tell the children (or the blog) until today. I will admit that more than anything else, I was surprised that the process was so much like 'real' labor. (yes, I know, it IS real labor) but especially in contrast to the easy birth six years ago, this one was difficult, physically as well as emotionally.
The Grand Lunar came home from work and picked his sister up from the airport, with all the children, so that I could stay home and rest, and stayed home to be with me after that, which was really nice, just to have him here.
By evening I was feeling better and able to make it to Iliacat's end of the year concert for the Youth Honors Ensemble. She was beautiful and sang well and I was so proud of her.
We celebrated Tobi-wan's birthday with the first of the presents and the songs, but he'll get cake and more presents on Sunday with my parents.
Anyway ... now we move on with grieving for what is lost, and hoping for the future, and knowing that in all things, God is good.
My biggest prayer is that He would, indeed, be glorified through this. That through our lives, our loss, that He would bring glory to Himself.
Praise the Lord, His goodness endures forever.
Posted by Kim at April 19, 2007 3:49 PMOh, (((((Kim))))), my heart just aches for you. As the tears run down my face, know that I am going to continue to keep you in prayer, my friend.
Your words are so beautiful,
"Praise the Lord, His goodness endures forever"
Hugs & Love
Posted by: Robin at April 19, 2007 4:26 PMThese words seem trite, but I truly am sorry for your loss, my friend.
Posted by: Rosanne at April 19, 2007 4:58 PMI'm so sorry Kim.
{{{hugs}}}
When I lost my baby, it helped me to be reminded that even though I never got to hold him or her on Earth, I will be reunited with them in Heaven.
I pray for God's peace in your hearts as you grieve.
Sending you much love!
Oh gosh Kim, I am so sorry. There are no words.
Praying for you, and hugging you close. Be safe in God's arms through this.
You are amazing.
He gives and takes away,
my heart will choose to say
Blessed be the Name of the Lord.
Grieving with you, sweetie.
Posted by: Peggy at April 19, 2007 6:53 PMkim. i don't know what to say. i was so hoping for a different outcome for you. i'm so, so sorry.
for me, i was surprised that it was not like labor at all. i was probably not as far along as you are (only 9 1/2 weeks). i had a very physically easy miscarriage.
Posted by: melissa at April 19, 2007 7:03 PMKim,
I am so sorry. :( I am praying for you. :(
Posted by: Julie in MI at April 19, 2007 7:08 PM((((((((((Kim)))))))))))
I'm so sorry! I was so praying that you would find out that everything was fine. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are still with you and your family.
Oh, and I was amazed at how much like labor it was when I miscarried, too. (Especially the second time, but at that point I was 17 weeks.) I guess I just expected it to be different since it was not a full term baby. If you need to "talk" feel free to e-mail me...otherwise, I'll just keep praying.
Posted by: Leigh at April 19, 2007 8:26 PMI am so sorry, Kim. This was not the result I hoped for you, either. I don't really know what to say, other than that I will continue to pray for you.
April
Posted by: April at April 19, 2007 10:17 PMI am so sorry. I will continue to pray for you.
Posted by: Shari at April 20, 2007 2:30 AMOur hearts and continued prayers go out to you.
((hugs))
Valeri
I'm so sad to not meet the new Andfam. But hey! I was just thinking "in 70 years or less I'll get to meet him" and then realized that in my advanced age I can probably safely say "60 years or less" and THEN I realized that baby Andfam has a really cool UNCLE to hang out with in Heaven, and that it's the FIRST niece or nephew that Scott will get to meet! :o) That made me smile. OK, cry and smile, but still.
Posted by: kelly at April 20, 2007 8:18 AMKim,
I'm so sorry. I will still be praying for your comfort and peace. Is there anything that I can do for you? Please let me know if there is and I will be all over it.
Posted by: Barbie at April 20, 2007 10:57 AMKim, I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet little one. May the gifts this child left behind shine forth and bring you comfort in the days ahead. (((HUGS)))
Mama Bear
Baby's photo album
I have no pretty picture book
of scenes from when you grew
I don't have any photos
of the child most never knew
No photographs or video
to prove that you were mine
No baby clothes or footprints
to mark your place in time
I carry in my memory
the wonder of your life
the beauty of your being
and the time before the night
Such short and treasured moments
not measurable by time
the memories of your being
fill the pages of my mind
© 7/25/97
Posted by: Mama Bear at April 20, 2007 12:09 PMOh Kim! Hugs and more prayers. May the God of all comfort bless you and your family.
Posted by: Karen W at April 20, 2007 4:08 PMI'm so sorry for your loss, too. God IS good, as you said, and I will pray for your comfort.
Posted by: Eowyn at April 20, 2007 5:10 PM{{HUGS}} Kim, I'm praying for you and your family. This is never easy. E-mail me if you need to "talk"!
(((Kim))) I am so sorry for your loss.
Posted by: Janne at April 24, 2007 7:40 PM
