Same Song, Second Verse

(fortunately not really louder nor worse, though)

More bizarre and apparently anxious dreams. I thought I was just feeling tired, but my dreams say anxious, too. Good old dreams, there to tell you what you're trying to stuff.

Last night I dreamed we completely missed tonight's last rehearsal before the final musical. I was watching the clock, in my dream, and knew we had to go soon. Then I guess I *spaced out* for a bit, and I looked up and it was 8:15 and the rehearsals ended at 8:30. I knew we didn't have time to make it, but I scrambled around trying to get the kids ready ... until I realized they were already in their jammies, even. So I left them and hurried off to the tail-end to make my apologies.

I also dreamed I was hosting some sort of HUGE dinner party, and making all the food myself, from scratch. I remember moving a bunch (stalk?) of Bok Choy out of my way, past some other dishes, so I could open a can of (water chesnuts? macadamia nuts? some dream-food that was a cross of the two? water macadanuts?) and commenting to the people in the kitchen that I wished I was one of those people who cleaned up as they cook. I was making a huge mess, but too stressed to stop and tidy up as I went because all the people for the big party were already THERE, and apparently I was running behind. I was trying to make the (water macadanuts?) into some sort of frosting, so I needed to puree them into a nut-butter, add sugar and cocoa ... I wanted to blend them but didn't want to find the old nut butter maker I used to have - I think I was embarrassed to have so many people in my kitchen seeing how I cook (winging everything) .... I couldn't find the cocoa and people were getting out all the wrong old bizarre dishes to serve things on.

Then people started picking through all the half-made dishes we were working on to serve, because they were hungry and wanted to eat now.

Then there were all these children that were there for part of the party - there was something like a big scavenger hunt, and it was supposed to end with the kids' dessert table, and I was scrambling in big dark rooms to stay ahead of them preparing things, setting them out in time ...

I woke up feeling anxious and stressed.