stupid is as stupid does

I've once again proved I can't do a little caffeine, regularly.

I haven't been having a lot. But I've been having a little, regularly.

I'm starting to feel anxiety creeping up on me.

I know the caffeine is what triggers it. But I can feel it slowly rising over the last few days.

I'm discouraged at the idea of trying to quit again. It doesn't matter that I haven't been drinking a lot. My 1 cup of coffee has been 1/3 regular, 2/3 decaf. You'd think that would be low enough. But no. I'm pretty sure I'm facing the same horrible headaches, fatigue, and depression even with that low level.

It's a lose-lose situation, and I'm in the Loser seat.

Today I'll try to stick to that one cup I had this morning, not add a can of diet coke or anything. We'll see if I survive.